what would you do
if my heart was torn into
more than word to show you feel
that your love for me is real

what would you say
if i took those words away
than you couldn’t make things knew
just by saying i love you

more than word

now that i’ve tried to
talk to you and make you understand
all you have to do is close your eyes
and just reach out your hands
and touch me
hold me close don’t ever let me go
more than word
its all i have needed you to show
than you worried have to say
that you love me
’cause i already know

what would you do
if my heart was torn into
more than word to show you feel
that your love for me is real

what would you say
if i took those words away
than you couldn’t make things knew
just by saying i love you

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i’ll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one’s there

say goodnight
don’t be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

[Chorus]

i’m going under
drowning in you
i’m falling forever
i’ve got to break through
i’m going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don’t know what’s real and what’s not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can’t trust myself anymore
i’m dying again

i’m going under
drowning in you
i’m falling forever
i’ve got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i’m so far away
i won’t be broken again
i’ve got to breathe i can’t keep going under

never was and never will be
have you no shame don’t you see me
you know you’ve got everybody fooled

look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you’re pretending
but now i know she

never was and never will be
you don’t know how you’ve betrayed me
and somehow you’ve got everybody fooled

without the mask where will you hide
can’t find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don’t love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you’re not real and you can’t save me
somehow now you’re everybody’s fool

volume gradually grows over raindrop background
full volume with beat right after “thunder” noise

[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain’t callin
I left my cell, my pager,
and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn,
you must not-a got ‘em
There probably was a problem
at the post office or somethin
Sometimes I scribble addresses
too sloppy when I got ‘em
but anyways; fuck it, what’s been up?
Man how’s your daughter?
My girlfriend’s pregnant too,
I’m bout to be a father
If I have a daughter,
guess what I’ma call her?
I’ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I’m sorry
I had a friend kill himself over
some bitch who didn’t want him
I know you probably hear this everyday,
but I’m your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit
that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters
and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too,
that shit was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man,
hit me back, just to chat,
truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan

{Chorus: Dido}

[Eminem as 'Stan']

Dear Slim, you still ain’t called or wrote,
I hope you have a chance
I ain’t mad – I just think
it’s FUCKED UP you don’t answer fans
If you didn’t wanna talk to me
outside your concert
you didn’t have to,
but you coulda signed an
autograph for Matthew
That’s my little brother man,
he’s only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you,
four hours and you just said, “No.”
That’s pretty shitty man
you’re like his fuckin idol
He wants to be just like you man,
he likes you more than I do
I ain’t that mad though,
I just don’t like bein lied to
Remember when we met in Denver
you said if I’d write you
you would write back
see I’m just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither;
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you’re saying in your songs
so when I have a shitty day,
I drift away and put ‘em on
cause I don’t really got shit else
so that shit helps when I’m depressed
I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself
to see how much it bleeds
It’s like adrenaline,
the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real,
and I respect you cause you tell it
My girlfriend’s jealous
cause I talk about you

But she don’t know you like
I know you Slim, no one does
She don’t know what it was like
for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man,
I’ll be the biggest fan you’ll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan — P.S.
We should be together too

{Chorus: Dido}

[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Mister-I’m-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,
this’ll be the last package I ever send your ass
It’s been six months and still no word
I don’t deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;
I wrote the addresses on ‘em perfect
So this is my cassette I’m sending you,
I hope you hear it
I’m in the car right now,
I’m doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka,
you dare me to drive?
You know the song by Phil Collins,
“In the Air of the Night”
about that guy who coulda saved
that other guy from drowning
but didn’t, then Phil saw it all,
then at a a show he found him?
That’s kinda how this is,
you coulda rescued me from drowning
Now it’s too late
I’m on a 1000 downers now, I’m drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped
ALL of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we coulda been together,
think about it
You ruined it now,
I hope you can’t sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream
I hope you can’t sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU
and you can’t BREATHE without me
See Slim; {*screaming*}
Shut up bitch! I’m tryin to talk!
Hey Slim, that’s my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn’t slit her throat,
I just tied her up, see I ain’t like you
cause if she suffocates she’ll suffer more,
and then she’ll die too
Well, gotta go, I’m almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot,
how’m I supposed to send this shit out?
{*car tires squeal*} {*CRASH*}
{*brief silence*} .. {*LOUD splash*}

{Chorus: Dido}

[Eminem]
Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner
but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend’s pregnant now,
how far along is she?
Look, I’m really flattered
you would call your daughter that
and here’s an autograph for your brother,
I wrote it on the Starter cap
I’m sorry I didn’t see you at the show,
I musta missed you
Don’t think I did that shit
intentionally just to diss you
But what’s this shit you said
about you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shit just clownin dogg,
c’mon – how fucked up is you?
You got some issues Stan,
I think you need some counseling
to help your ass from bouncing off the walls
when you get down some
And what’s this shit about us meant to be together?
That type of shit’ll make me
not want us to meet each other
I really think you
and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter,
I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself,
I think that you’ll be doin just fine
if you relax a little,
I’m glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad? Try to understand,
that I do want you as a fan
I just don’t want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news
a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk
and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk,
and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape,
but they didn’t say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!

[ Intro ]

Yeah
I know sometimes things might not always
make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What’chu crying about?
You got me..

[ Verse 1 ]

Hailie, I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when I’m gone
But I’m trying to give you the life
that I never had
I can see you’re sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside, you wanna cry
Cuz you’re scared
I ain’t there?
Daddy’s with you in your prayers
No more crying
Wipe them tears
Daddy’s here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gon’ do it
Laini, uncle’s crazy ain’t he?
Yeah but he loves you girl
and you better know it
We’re all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it’s confusing you
Daddy’s always on the move
Mama’s always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder
that I try to do that
the more it backfires on me
All the things, growing up
As daddy that he had to see
Daddy don’t want you to see
But you see just as much as me (to see?)
That we did not plan it to be this way
You’re mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don’t see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be when was teenagers
But then of coarse
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it’s just something
We have no control over
And that’s what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we’ll wake up
And this will all just be a dream

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now
and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Verse 2 ]

It’s funny
I remember back one year
when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up
and stuck them under the tree
and said some of them were from me
Cos daddy couldn’t buy ‘em
I’ll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night cryin’
Cuz daddy felt like a bum
See dadday had a job
But his job was to keep the food
on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house
that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into
and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money
For you in a jar trying
to start a piggy bank for you
So you can go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad
it broke your mama’s heart
And it seemed like everything was
just starting to fall apart
Mom and dads was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on
the Chalmers and the flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side
of 8 mile on Novarra
And that’s when daddy went
to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre
and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work
You and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn’t like it
And you and Laini
were too young to understand it
Papa was a rolling stone
mama developed a habit
and it all happened too fast
for either one of us to grab it
I’m just sorry you were there
and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do
was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin’ in this empty house,
just reminiscin’
Looking at your baby pictures
it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
It’s almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And daddy’s still here
Laini I’m talking to you too
Daddy’s still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?
Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now
and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy pretty baby
But I promise
Mama’s gonna be alright

[ Outro]

And if you ask me to,
Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird
I’ma give you the world
I’ma buy a diamond ring for you
I’ma sing for you, I’ll do anything
for you to see you smile
And if the mockingbird don’t sing
and the ring don’t shine
I’ma break that birdy’s neck
I’ll go back to the Jeweler
who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat
Don’t fuck wit dad.
haha

[Chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart,
left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

[Verse 1]
I’m supposed to be the soldier
who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight
of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it,
my crew ain’t supposed to know it
Even if it means goin’ toe to toe
with a Benzino it don’t matter
I’d never drag them in battles
that I can handle unless
I absolutely have to
I’m supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader,
my crew looks for me to guide ‘em
If some shit ever just pop off,
I’m supposed to be beside ‘em
Now the Ja shit i tried to squash it,
it was too late to stop it
There’s a certain line you
just don’t cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie’s name
on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit be way
beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won,
I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it,
honestly I’m exhausted
And I’m so caught in it
I almost feel I’m the one who caused it
This ain’t what I’m in hip-hop for,
it’s not why I got in it
That was never my object
for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy
something I help build
It wasn’t my intentions,
my intentions was good
I went through my whole career
without ever mentionin’ Suge
Now it’s just out of respect
for not runnin’ my mouth
And talkin’ about something
that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out,
this just wasn’t my beef
So I did, I just fell back,
watched and gritted my teeth
While he’s all over t.v. down talkin’ a man
who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn’t none of my business
But still knowin’ this shit
could pop off at any minute cuz

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
There used to be a time
when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn’t have to worry
about one of your people dyin’
But now it’s elevated
cuz once you put someone’s kids in it
The shit gets escalated,
it ain’t just words no more is it?
It’s a different ball game,
callin’ names and you ain’t just rappin’
We actually tried to stop
the 50 and Ja beef from happenin’
Me and Dre had sat with him,
kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it
he wasn’t gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin’ in magazines
how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash ‘em,
mash ‘em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention
is pullin’ in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source
who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks
that I’ll be his ressurection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic
and make a new record
But now he’s fucked the game up
cuz one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication
the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge
against me for nothin’
Well fuck it, that mutherfucker
can get it too, fuck him then
But I’m so busy being pissed off
I don’t stop to think
That we just inherited
50′s beef with Murder Inc.
And he’s inherited mine
which is fine ain’t like either of us mind
We still have soldiers
that’s on the front line
That’s willing to die for us
as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us,
strictly to show they support us
We’ll maybe shout ‘em out
in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love ‘em back
and let ‘em know how important it is
To have Runion Avenue Soldiers up in our corners
Their loyalty to us
is worth more than any award is
But I ain’t tryna have none
of my people hurt and murdered
There ain’t words
that I can’t think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say
that I love ya’ll too much to see the virdict
I’ll walk away from it all
before I let it go any further
But don’t get it twisted,
it’s not a plea that I’m coppin’
I’m just willin’ to be the bigger man
If ya’ll can quit poppin’ off
at your jaws with the knockin’
Cuz frankly I’m sick of talkin’
I’m not gonna let someone
elses coffin rest on my conscience cuz

[Chorus]

[Intro]
Where’s my snare?
I have no snare in my headphones – there you go
Yeah.. yo, yo

[Eminem]
Have you ever been hated or discriminated against?
I have; I’ve been protested and demonstrated against
Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind of the motherfuckin kid that’s behind
all this commotion emotions run deep as ocean’s explodin
Tempers flarin from parents just blow ‘em off and keep goin
Not takin nothin from no one give ‘em hell long as I’m breathin
Keep kickin ass in the mornin and takin names in the evenin
Leave ‘em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they’ll never figure me out
Look at me now; I bet ya probably sick of me now ain’t you momma?
I’ma make you look so ridiculous now

[Chorus: Eminem]
I’m sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I’m cleanin out my closet (one more time)
I said I’m sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I’m cleanin out my closet

[Eminem]
Ha! I got some skeletons in my closet
and I don’t know if no one knows it
So before they thrown me inside my coffin and close it
I’ma expose it; I’ll take you back to ’73
before I ever had a multi-platinum sellin CD
I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunch
cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don’t on second thought I just fuckin wished he would die
I look at Hailie, and I couldn’t picture leavin her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I’d try
to make it work with her at least for Hailie’s sake

I maybe made some mistakes
but I’m only human, but I’m man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cuz I’da killed him; shit I woulda shot Kim and them both
It’s my life, I’d like to welcome y’all to “The Eminem Show”

[Chorus]

[Eminem]
Now I would never diss my own momma just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissin
But put yourself in my position; just try to envision
witnessin your momma poppin prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitchin that someone’s always goin throuh her purse and shit’s missin
Goin through public housin systems, victim of Munchausen’s Syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn’t
’til I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya stomach
doesn’t it? Wasn’t it the reason you made that CD for me Ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me Ma?
But guess what? You’re gettin older now and it’s cold when your lonely
And Nathan’s growin up so quick he’s gonna know that your phony
And Hailie’s gettin so big now; you should see her, she’s beautiful
But you’ll never see her – she won’t even be at your funeral!
See what hurts me the most is you won’t admit you was wrong
Bitch do your song – keep tellin yourself that you was a mom!
But how dare you try to take what you didn’t help me to get
You selfish bitch; I hope you fuckin burn in hell for this shit
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I +AM+ dead – dead to you as can be!

[Chorus] – repeat 2X

There she stood in the doorway;
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself,
this could be heaven or this could be hell?
Then she lit up a candle
and she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor,
I thought I heard them say…

Chorus 1 :
Welcome to the hotel california
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the hotel california
Any time of year, you can find it here

Her mind is tiffany-twisted,
she got the mercedes bends
She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys,
that she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard,
sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember,
some dance to forget

So I called up the captain,
please bring me my wine?
He said: we haven’t had that spirit here
since nineteen sixty nine?
And still those voices are calling from far away,
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say…

Chorus 2 :
Welcome to the hotel california
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face
They livin’ it up at the hotel california
What a nice surprise, bring your alibis

Mirrors on the ceiling,
The pink champagne on ice
And she said: we are all just prisoners here,
of our own device?
And in the master’s chambers,
They gathered for the feast
The stab it with their steely knives,
But they just can’t kill the beast

Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
relax, said the night man,
We are programmed to receive.
You can checkout any time you like,
But you can never leave!